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Name: Mary
Birthday: 12/20/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: I love hanging out with my best friend KRISTEN (were always together) and hanging out with all the boys LOVE YOU GUYS! I like to do the normal girl thing i love to go shopping and party and meeting new people ( like boys) you know same old same old, But my number one interest is how im going to get out of school as fast as i can!!!
Expertise: Im really good at helping people with there problems and being there for them, i know what is like to have people be like "whats your problem" so i love to help people who are upset and let them know not everyone in this world is (like in the incubus song) THAT FUCKED UP AND COLD! !!!!
Im also good at just having a good time!
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AIM:  Fallin709
Member Since:
7/25/2004
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| wow i havent been on this thing in so long i think i even forgot about it. Its so weird to think of what i said about ppl or things or even what ppl have said about me. its weird to think of how hard i tried to get into school in cali and then didnt go. how i used to cry over ex boyfriends and friends its just weird to see how much has changed in the past three years. this is just weird for me. Its weird to read kristins things about me i can see where shes right about half of that i turned into someone i wasnt and its totaly strange to see how i used to freak out about jacob when he wasnt anything imporant to what i had with zach. you never thought your parents would be right when they told you you wouldnt even be friends with half the ppl you are in high school im maybe talk to like 4 from truman and maybe a few from blue springs. i wish it wasnt like that but i guess you have to get to that point were you just have to take things for what they are. i had a blast back then i wish i wasnt so much drama and nor do i wish i would have caused other ppl that much drama. god its just weird to look back and be like wow i am totaly not that person anymore and im so glad im not i wish i cold do things differnt but you cant take the past back you just have to move forward | | |
| So i think i'm not going to cali anymore, i know i know i tried sooo hard to get into this school and was sooo excited when i got in but you know not having anyone behind me on this and having to pay for 50,000 dollars on my own and go out there on my own with no car is going to be a little difficult i mean i know i could do it, oh god i dont know what i'm going to do. i signed up for longview for next year and i think i'm going to see if i can get into this art school in chicago, it would only take 9 hours instead of 24 to get there and would be cheaper and i would still be in the city so thats a plus. So i think thats what im going to do, i know for a fact that sometime in the next year i have to get the fuck out of here.
MAN I NEED TO MAKE UP MY MIND!!!!!
It would be nice if someone was behind me on any of this, but its just like everything else i have to do it on my own.
Mary | | |
| Guess what? I got in!! Can you believe it. I got in! I've never been more excited for anything in my life! Its so weird from the moment I got excepted nothing bothers me as much anymore. I think its because deep down in my heart I know I wont have to deal with it anymore. All that people that I know talk about me or have some weird problem with me I could care less about, Jacob doesn't bother me anymore its like I actually want to spend time with him before I go because after I leave that's it, I mean I might run into him when im like 25 or something but by then he's just going to be a memory in my head of my "first love" so its weird nothing he does fazes me anymore. Im not worried about anything, well I cant say that because I am about money and getting a new car and my diet. (that I haven't been fallowing, sorry Adam) The only thing I really want before I leave is to fix all the little things before I leave. I just want to leave on good terms with everyone. So when im lonely at school the thoughts that run through my brain aren't I wish I would have told this person this and so on, you know what I mean. But I leave at the end of march so i hope I get to spend time with all the people I love and care about.
Oh and to everyone on New Years if your wondering what happened to me or your pissed at me because you THINK I drove drunk I didn't. I drove like 100 feet to the RLDS chruch to have SOBER friends come and pick me up and drive my car back to there house and i staid there. I just couldn't take the yelling and screaming and people being so rude to each other, and im not saying that me driving 100 feet to get to the RLDS chruch was any better or right but in that moment I did have I thought I had to do so if I hurt your feelings or whatever from the bottom of my heart I am sorry.
Peace
Mary Elizabeth
And thanks to whoever took chris's cd that i had, im glad that youre enjoying it! | | |
| HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I talked to my admissions lady at school in long beach and I should know before Christmas if im in or not, god I pray so hard that I get in, it will be the best thing that will ever happen to me and the best Christmas present ever! Then no more bullshit!!!!
God if I can have anything in the world getting out of here would be it!!!!
Peace Out,
Mary Elizabeth
True friends are hard to find! | | |
| I want soooo much out of life but I feel like I'm going no where. Out of all the people that staid home from school doesn't life just seem boring as hell. There's nothing to do anymore besides work and school, no more party's no more hanging out with friends and all that stuff. I want things to be the way they used to be! I want out of this town I want to move to a big city or something. I feel soo alone lately and it really makes me super sad. I feel like I don't have a BEST FRIEND someone that I can call and tell all my deep dark secrets to someone to hangout with even if there's nothing to do and so on. Life just isn't the same anymore and I hate it with all I have. I'm sooo angry I cant even put it into words how angry and sad I get. I want a friend or friends that want the same things that I do. I want someone I can go shopping with and go to the plaza and go out to eat someone that will confide in me as much as I confide in them someone I can be bored with someone who wants to party and get drunk and just everything else. I just don't want to look back and we like wow life was boring when I was younger. Oh and also JACOB GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!! I Love with all I have and I hate you with all I have and we just need to let each other go. We are sooo messed up so just go away! It would be best for the both of us just not to talk for a really really really long time. I hope you can find someone that can give you what you want, because as we can see I cant. And you guys that have the super cute relationships you make me puke!!!!! I have the worst luck with guys so someone please tell me what I'm doing wrong? and be honest. Then the fact that I gained so much weight after my surgery or what seems like sooo much to me drives me nuts!! so I stopped bitching and I got a pass to a gym and a trainer and in a few months im going to be soooooo hott!!! hahah and speaking of hott my trainer he's the hottest guy I've ever seen and just to get up and see him every day is going to make me go to the gym. hahahah I've been thinking long and hard by next fall I'm going to have my own apartment or I'm going to be going to a huge school in a different state and really I'm leaning on going to a different state there nothing left for me here anymore and until then if something can change my mind I'm out of here. Im so sick and tired of being sick and tired. Im tired of having to be such a bitch because no one will grow up!!!!!!!!! God I cant bitch anymore so peace out!!!!!!!!
Mary Elizabeth | | |
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